I forgive you

I forgive you for not loving me and not even trying to. I forgive you, for lieing to me so many times, and me, for I believed you like a fool.

I forgive you for making plans together that you later dispelled. That you blamed me for flaws that I didn't have, for things that I didn't do and that now you love in another.

I forgive you for making me feel weak, for making me doubt myself. I forgive you for all those months that I spent crying, with no wish to see anyone.

I forgive you for making me lose my trust in people and love. I forgive you for showing me that people can be so evil and that too much kindness is definitely bad.

I forgive you for all the times you left me alone without caring. I forgive you for your way to be: numb, distant, vain, arrogant.

I forgive you because you saw I am too good for you and that you chose to settle for less. I understand you now and I know you were right. I was always too good for you.

I forgive you for not being capable to keep me in your life, for not trying to stop me, for hurting me, for not stopping from harming me.

I forgive you for playing with me; that you left and came back only to leave again. That you din't allow me to forget you and go on with my life.

I forgive you for making me question my sanity, my feelings, for shattering every piece of my soul.

I forgive you for all those horrible words you said to me. Words transformed in the knife that you used to twist in my heart just like that,..for fun.

I forgive you for not being man enough.

I forgive you for all the promises made and unkept. For telling me that you will always be my friend. But you never were. I forgive you for not being capable of saying hi and see how am I doing.

I forgive you for all those other things that you have done, but that I cannot mention here.

I forgive you because I have to forgive myself. Because you are not guitly of saying, doing or not feeling. I am guilty that I believed, hoped and loved.