I forgive you

I forgive you for not loving me and not even trying to. I forgive you, for lieing to me so many times, and me, for I believed you like a fool.

I forgive you for making plans together that you later dispelled. That you blamed me for flaws that I didn't have, for things that I didn't do and that now you love in another.

I forgive you for making me feel weak, for making me doubt myself. I forgive you for all those months that I spent crying, with no wish to see anyone.

I forgive you for making me lose my trust in people and love. I forgive you for showing me that people can be so evil and that too much kindness is definitely bad.

The biggest downfall

The goals you set for yourself in life are limited by the environment, experience and by what others choose for you (family, friends).

It usually takes a dramatic event for the right path to be revealed. Life will show you the things that matter. A slap on the face and you will wake up from what you were programmed to do.

You always see a loss like a bad thing. But after a while you might realise that it was probably the best thing that could have happen to you. If you are too attached to people you love, places you go, things you have, you will always be afraid of change, because you think you're gonna lose them.

But, when it happens...when it hits you harder than you could have ever imagined, you suddenly realise there's no fear anymore. The moment the worst happens, you feel free. You have nothing to lose.

The most widespread disease

We live in a "free" world full of manipulation. We are being taught how to think, how to act, how to hate, how to love, how to live.

The media is the ultimate weapon.

Nowadays we have acces to any information...that we are granted to have access to. We are daily fed with ideas like animals with food in livestock breeders.
The system gives us the ideals, the goals and the "choices" in life.

Maybe more than 99.99% of us live in this matrix without recognizing it. And the worst part? Many of those who become aware of it in some degree also come to accept and embrace it. We see no harm in it.

We resign ourselves believing it is something that surpasses us.
And it does actually. Because we allow it to.

The solution? The alternative?

Don't be the prisoner of your own mind

I hear of more and more people complaining about their lack of good luck.

When I was little, my dad told me some very wise words: "For you to be able to do what you want in life, you must first do what is needed to do." This words got stuck in my head.

Some skip this step. They have that pure good luck that we all wish for. Very few thou.

But the rest of us? We need to make our own luck. How do we do that? By trial and error....and change!

Don't dare to tell me about your misfortune in life when you choose to be stuck on a path that leads to nowhere. Don't dare to tell yourself that. It's a choice. And if so, live with it. Stop complaining.
Doing the same thing and expecting different results is insane!

I always say that you can do whatever you want in life if you fight for it. But this is a two-way road.

What comes after 'nothing'?

Sometimes it happens that you reach a point in your life where you don't want anything anymore. You come to love someone so much, then you want to change things, do better, be better. Then you don't want anything. You are tired of fighting, wishing and doing.
You don't want someone else. You don't want to meet someone new.

Sometimes, the end of a relationship might be the end of your dreams.

When you realize that this has no future, you leave. Then, you change your mind. You come back. Then, you leave again. And you keep doing this until you destroy everything that's left in both of you - any kind of feelings, empathy, (self) respect, TRUST.